I was overly optimistic in my last post. There's stuff going on that I am not ready to post in a public blog. Thank you to everyone who's checked up on me - it means a lot and helps to know people care. You guys are all amazing :) I am reading blogs just not commenting much.
Some of you are like real friends to me, so if you like to keep in touch, please feel free to email me at downwardtrenz@gmail.com and I'll fill you in as best I can.
Take care.