Nov 22, 2012
The Fall is always difficult for me to blog, I am not sure why. I find that in the Fall, my thoughts turn inwards and I want to spend more time alone and less time sharing. The social whirlwind that was my October/November was unusual and out of character for me and I found that it drained me emotionally.
I always see Fall as a the start of something new (as opposed to the end of something old) and I welcome the changes even though change often means disruption and some uncomfortableness for a while.
Right now, I have a bunch of plans in the works and I am waiting to see which ones work out before I can make some life decisions and move forward in one of the directions open to me right now. It may not all come together soon so I feel in a bit of limbo, but I am pushing forward while reexamining what I want from my life and from myself.
This past weekend, I took a road trip with my good friend Shelley to visit friends in Pennsylvania. We had such an amazing time. They are all wonderful, generous and funny people to spend time with and I laughed a lot. Just about every minute was jam packed, but it was all quality time and we are already talking about our plans for next year.
On the health and exercise front, I am doing ok but not great. I think I had food poisoning when I returned home Monday evening and was sick most of Monday night, all day Tuesday and yesterday, but today my stomach has settled and I feel normal again. Unfortunately, the weekend away was not full of good eating choices or any exercise so I am back to my little workplace gym tomorrow to get back to running/ellipticalling/walking and I think I’m going to count calories and carbs for the next month as I’ve been off track for a number of weeks and I am feeling it in my jeans.
Nov 10, 2012
Nov 8, 2012
My ankles were still really stiff though but aren’t when I’m walking/standing normally – I wonder if using the elliptical/treadmill puts them in a different angle than running/walking naturally? I’m going to run outside this weekend so I can check that theory.
I truly, truly hate the treadmill and elliptical.
It is incredibly boring.
I never would have stuck with running if I had started with that rather than outside. I have good music and I can even watch TV, but it is still INCREDIBLY boring and the minutes seem to go by so slowly. At least walking on the treadmill I can read and that makes the time go by faster. I keep telling myself, like every SINGLE second, that this is just to get through Winter. The other problem is that I run much slower on the treadmill; I think I’m afraid of falling off. When I set it to my normal pace it seems way too fast and I feel like I can’t keep up. Now even outside, I run slow, so the treadmill is even slower – snails might be passing me at this rate. I’m better on the elliptical and my plan is to alternate the treadmill and elliptical to save my knees so I can do something every day. There’s also some kind of scary weight machine and a whole rack of dumbbells, if I can figure out what to do with them, I might give it a shot sometime.
The good thing that I will usually have the whole gym to myself so I can do whatever I want, look as ridiculous as I want and take as long as I want to shower – keeping in mind I have about 55 minutes to workout, shower, blow dry my hair and get dressed in the mornings and only about 40 min at lunch (where I have to change twice). But it’s better than nothing which is what I had been doing for the last few weeks. I do miss my running clinic though. I wanted to try lunch time just to see if it was feasible and it’s not really enough time but if for some reason, I can’t make the morning, at least I know I can squeeze in 20-25 minutes. I have a pair of shoes and a set of workout clothes here so if I don’t bring them one day, I’m still covered. I’m really trying to make this work and not have an “out”.
Food is so – so, I have awesome days and then days where I go back to wheat/dairy. Sugar is pretty much under control but although wheat and dairy aren’t triggers the same way sugar is, they still leave me feeling lethargic, bloated and heavy. Weight wise, I’m fluctuating in a 5lb range 192-197 – which is far too close to 200 for my liking. Fall is my most challenging time of year for so many reasons and I normally fall off the wagon big time – this year I am hanging on which is an improvement over the last few years at this time.
I have put some plans in motion for the next six months and I need to be patient and wait and see which ones come to fruition before I can make some major life decisions so right now I’m just trying to make the best of what I can with what is available to me in all areas of my life.
Nov 7, 2012
Nov 4, 2012
I turned 45 on October 30, and after a few difficult years, I feel like I am starting a new chapter in my life and I plan to enjoy and make the most of it!
Here are some of the people and things that made turning 45 so special.
First 10k Race
Friends and Laughter
- Dinners and outings and watching a friend complete his first half marathon!
Night out: Dinner, War Horse and Friends, new and old!
On a pub patio with one of my favourite guys on an Indian Summer Night in October.