Aug 31, 2009

7 months on the way to the rest of my life.


tortoise So I’ve been working at losing weight for 7 months. Since January 31, 2009. This is how far I’ve come and I think I’m doing well. I’m hoping that slow and steady is truly the way to get to goal.


January 31

August 31

Weight (lbs)




Waist (inches)









I’m pretty happy with this progress so far.

Tonight I am just not in a good headspace. I am tired – I haven’t slept well the last few nights and that is often the beginning of my downfall. So tonight,  I am not working out – I am just going to bed early and getting some good sleep.

Tomorrow is a new day and I am sure it will be a better one.

Aug 30, 2009

Saturday, Sunday and Next Week's Workout Plan

Saturday was a really long day. I went to Buffalo with a coworker and I think she had a good time, she bought alot of nice stuff!  I wasn’t feeling well all day and when we got to Olive Garden for lunch (we decided not to stay late enough for dinner) I ordered the Chicken Parmigiana with grilled vegetables. I still ate too many breadsticks (3) and forgot to order the salad without dressing and I was so tired, I just wanted to eat and go home.

Anyway, this week all my AP will be to make up the deficit of points from that meal!  More incentive, I guess :)

I am still really, really tired today – both emotionally and physically so I am just chilling. Den and the boys are going to a local burger joint for dinner and I am not feeling it so I’m going to stay home, read and just do nothing. I’ll make some soup for dinner later.

Exercise Plan

Today I walked along the Burlington Waterfront with Tina (Nowmotivated from the WW message boards), both of us were tired and neither of us really felt like pushing it today, so we did about 45 min for 1.78 miles.  I’ve put in one additional weekday morning workout to try and see how it goes, but normally weekday mornings are not my best time – I’m not a morning person at all! And I normally get up, shower, grab my stuff and go. I don’t even eat breakfast at home, I have it when I get to work. But I’m willing to try and see how it goes. I’m going to try a Leslie Sansone Walk Fit DVD, she has a 1 mile 15 minute workout. I figure its a good place to start and it means only adding 15 minutes to my morning.

Week 2
Aug 29-Sept 4
AM PM Check
Saturday Rest   This was easy!
Sunday Walk (1.78 miles)   Yes!
Monday   C25K - W1W4  
Tuesday   30 Day Shred L1-3  
Wednesday Walkfit DVD C25K - W1W5  
Thursday   Walk  
Friday   30 Day Shred L1-4  

Aug 28, 2009

TGIF and Staying on Track


stay_on_track It’s Friday!!

This has been a long week.  Very successful in my “healthy lifestyle” though :)  I am staying on track every day and following my exercise schedule.  Seriously, who knew just making a schedule would make it so much easier to actually do it?? As of tonight, I have finished a complete week of scheduled workouts.  The C25K tonight was surprisingly easy!  I didn’t break a sweat until the third interval. So…next week I am going to repeat Week 1 but at a faster speed for the walking and the running before I go to Week 2. When I started, I couldn’t even run through the last interval, to be just breezing through after such a short time seems like a miracle to me!

Today we all left work at 2 to go to a goodbye lunch for our summer co-op student and we went to Canyon Creek.  I had the Prime Rib sandwich with fries. I took the top off the sandwich (its served on French style baguette) and only ate half of the bottom bread, I trimmed all the fat from the meat (I hate fat and have been doing that since I was a little girl anyway) and ate about 1/3 of the fries. I am not sure how to count it so I put it as 30 points for the meal. I am planning to earn lots more AP for this coming week so hopefully it will all even out in the end.

Tonight Den and the boys wanted Wendy’s so I took them through the drive through to pick it up but just got a diet coke for me. I am not hungry again and the meal from lunch was very heavy.  So I had a bowl of cereal for dinner.  I’ll eat a snack before bed as well.  Sometimes I think I eat way more on WW than I did before! It feels like I am always eating!!!

My official weekly weigh in was this morning and I stayed the same. I’m ok with that. It’s the tail end of TOM and I know earned lots and lots of AP and I ate restaurant food yesterday (which always gives me a temporary gain) so I am sure all my hard work will show up next week, or with my luck, tomorrow :) I weigh myself every day.

Monday will mark 7 months since I officially started to try and lose weight so I’m going to see what I weigh and check my measurements and see how far I’ve come since January 31.

Tomorrow I am shuffaloing to Buffalo with a co-worker to go shopping. I’m not planning on buying much – a knapsack type purse and some shoes for the Fall that I can wear the site comfortably. More eating out though!! She had said she wanted to go to The Cheesecake Factory for dinner. Now I don’t like cheesecake so that may be my saving grace! I’ve never eaten there but everything I have seen about it on the WW boards tells me the menu is high, high, sky high in fat and calories so I’m not sure what I’m going to get.

Exercise Update

"You can do what you have to do, and sometimes you can do it even better than you think you can."

Jimmy Carter

I switched today’s workout to C25K from 30 Day Shred so I can do the Shred tomorrow morning before I head out town for the day. The Shred will be easier to do in the morning than C25K.

I’m going to do another week C25K at the Week 1 workout and then the week of September 5th try Week 2.


Week 1
Aug 22-28
AM PM Check
Saturday 30 Day Shred L1-1   Yes!
Sunday Walk   Yes!
Monday   C25K - W1W1 Yes!
Tuesday   30 Day Shred L1-2 Yes!
Wednesday   C25K - W1W2 Yes!
Thursday   Walk (2.32 miles) Yes!
Friday   C25K - W1W3 Yes!

Aug 27, 2009

Thursday Ramblings

I was/am tired today. I came home from work and dozed for about an hour.  Then Den and I went for a walk around the neighbourhood and stopped in at the library. In total we walked 2.32 miles in just over an hour. 

I love the library – I should go there more often, I would save a ton of money!

I borrowed the latest Weight Watchers magazine, a bunch of CDs for relaxation, a beginners Yoga DVD and some books on DVD.

My co-workers and I went to Licks for lunch today and I had the turkey burger (I think its called the Gobbler) and fries. I am still FULL and don’t even want dinner – actually dinner has come and gone and I am still not hungry but I will have some cheese and crackers in a bit to take my meds and then I think I will pop in one of those relaxation CDs and drift away to slumberland.


Week 1
Aug 22-28
AM PM Check
Saturday 30 Day Shred L1-1   Yes!
Sunday Walk   Yes!
Monday   C25K - W1W1 Yes!
Tuesday   30 Day Shred L1-2 Yes!
Wednesday   C25K - W1W2 Yes!
Thursday   Walk (2.32 miles) Yes!
Friday   30 Day Shred L1-3  

Aug 26, 2009

Hump Day

Another good day. It feels so great to be on a roll :)

We went out to dinner tonight to our favourite Tex-Mex restaurant and I think I did really well, I had two fajitas. I love fajitas because I’m in complete control of the portion size and toppings. Then on the way home, we stopped at Dairy Queen and I had a small chocolate dipped cone. Still within my points, I used a few Weekly Points. I had lots left over and tomorrow is my last day of the week so it worked out perfectly!

Breakfast was cereal and milk. Lunch was Brie and tomato on an Arnold’s Sandwich Thin with more grapes :)

My blood sugar was amazing today. Under 7.0 all day, including fasting. I am so happy, all the exercise must be having an effect –another reason to keep going at it.

Although I was physically tired today and my abs and thighs were sore from last night’s 30 Day Shred, I felt mentally alert and ready to take on the world. It’s a nice feeling.  It definitely helped me get through another stressful and people-challenging day. I really pushed hard and ran faster through the last two running intervals of the C25K tonight. Part of me was just determined to FINISH NOW..LOL..and the other part wanted to see how fast I could go and not fall fly off the treadmill.

I have to tell you guys that your blogs really help to keep me motivated and help me to get through my struggles and give me so many ideas!  Thanks to Fat[Free]Me for the workout schedule idea.  As well, all my great “friends” on the Weight Watchers message boards keep me focused all day long when I want to flake out or give up, I know I can log on and talk to them at any time to get help, encouragement, insight or just a laugh.

Exercise Schedule Update:

Week 1
Aug 22-28
AM PM Check
Saturday 30 Day Shred L1-1   Yes!
Sunday Walk   Yes!
Monday   C25K - W1W1 Yes!
Tuesday   30 Day Shred L1-2 Yes!
Wednesday   C25K - W1W2 Yes!
Thursday   Walk  
Friday   30 Day Shred L1-3  

Aug 25, 2009

Blog Award

Lovelyblogaward I was just catching up on my blog reading and found I was given this award from Crystal at Bye Bye Fat Pants. I am so thrilled and chuffed.

So now I get to pass it along. These are great woman who inspire me, encourage me and make me laugh.

Check out these great blogs (in no particular order):











Ladies, please pass your award along to your best blogs :)

Four to Score

Day 4 of my workout schedule and I am on track!

Week 1 AM PM Check
Saturday 30 Day Shred L1-1   Yes!
Sunday Walk   Yes!
Monday   C25K - W1W1 Yes!
Tuesday   30 Day Shred L1-2 Yes!
Wednesday   C25K - W1W2  
Thursday   Walk  
Friday   30 Day Shred L1-3  

(As an aside, does anyone know how I can copy this table into tomorrow’s blog entry, I have to keep redoing it because it won’t let me copy it, either in LiveWriter or Blogger dashboard…it seems simple enough but it won’t work!)

Another good “On Program” Day today.  I had a crappy morning at work and just wanted to get out of the office at lunch time and go somewhere far away for lunch. My wonderful coworker talked me into walking over to Loblaws with her and we split a Vegetable and Brie Ciabatta sandwich and a pound of grapes and ate in our boardroom to get away from the rest of the office. It was a great break and kept me from going through the drive-thru at Wendy’s, which is what I wanted to do.

The Shred was much easier tonight (my 2nd go at it) but I still find the skipping, basically jumping straight up and down, really hard so I was doing the running kind of skipping, instead.  The crunches were definitely easier though and I only had to stop to catch my breath once tonight.

Other food today included Hungry Girl’s Apple & Onion Stuffing. I followed the recipe exactly but found that it needed more bread, or less vegetables, it was very mushy. I like a drier stuffing. Next time I would either add more bread or less vegetables and definitely bake it uncovered longer. I also added sage as I thought it would be very bland with just garlic, salt and pepper and I love the combination of sage and onion. It was delicious tasting, just needed to be drier for my liking.  This is one of the few recipes in the 200 under 200 Cookbook that doesn’t use any prepackaged, processed ingredients (except for the bread) and I quite enjoyed it.

On Saturday I am going to Buffalo with another coworker to go shopping so although that day will include eating out – it will also include lots and lots of walking. I will redo my work out schedule for next week on Friday and I may use Saturday as a “rest” day since I am leaving home at 5:30 a.m. and won’t be back til close to midnight and put my focus on just eating well in restaurants that day.

Ok, I’m off to shower and then a glass of milk and then to bed.

Aug 24, 2009

15 Week Challenge

Well I’ve not posted about this for a few weeks.

There’s not really a good reason actually. The challenge consists of two main challenges each week.  One is called Workout Wednesday.  In all cases except one, the workouts were just too challenging for my fitness level and I felt really inadequate not being able to complete them.  In some cases I could partially do the workout, but I don’t think my form was right and I would definitely be in pain.  I just got so discouraged that it didn’t seem right to stay in the challenge when I was making no effort with a third of it (the workout part).

I don’t mean this as a criticism against Amy. She puts an amazing amount of work into the challenge and I am sure that many people are doing well and feeling challenged by it. I was just feeling inadequate and more unfit at a time when I was trying to get back into fitness. 

This won’t stop me from joining her next challenge though, when I am in a better place, physically and mentally.

3 for 3


Week 1




Saturday 30 Day Shred  


Sunday Walk  


Monday   C25K


Tuesday   30 Day Shred  
Wednesday   C25K  
Thursday   Walk  
Friday   30 Day Shred  


Here I am on day 3 of my workout schedule and right on track!!!  The C25K was ok tonight, I even ran through the last interval – something I haven’t been able to do before now.  I had a few technical difficulties, I dropped my MP3 player twice (!) and also the safety clip for the treadmill fell out twice – but I just kept going and refused to let it stop me.  Tomorrow is back to the the 30 Day Torture Shred. 

Eating was good today. I got all my points in thanks to a Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup :) Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do !! 

I have my meals planned for the rest of the week and I am confident that is going to be a great week.  I am determined to see 199 by my birthday on October 30th and with less than 20 lbs and still 10 weeks to go – it is very realistic and achievable.  I just need to keep my focus and stay the course – one day at a time.

Aug 23, 2009

Weekend Recap

Hello everyone,

First I want to give a shout out and big thank you to all my buddies who support me every day on the site. There are three threads I post to every day and these ladies, and a couple of gents, are so amazing. They are always inspirational and always make me smile. Two threads are on the 100+ board (Halloween Knockouts and Never Give Up) and one on the Newbies board (SOGs). They make this journey so much easier and I look so forward to logging in each day and "talking" with everyone. A special shout out to Tina (Nowmotivated) for her sense of humour and for being my walking buddy.

I did really well this weekend. TOM is here with a vengeance and normally I curl up and eat the crappiest of food. I am always under points because the thought of eating just turns my stomach at this time, but I eat crappy fast food because its easy. This weekend, I am still under points, but made a huge effort to eat healthy food and it has worked out pretty well.

I also stuck to the first two days of my workout schedule!!

Let me tell you about The 30-Day Shred. First of all, I think Jillian Michaels will drive me crazy if I have to listen to her every time I do it. I think once I have the routine down, I will just put music on and mute the DVD, her voice and her "encouragement" just annoyed me. The work out itself? I found the cardio to be very high impact - jumping jacks, kick backs and jump rope. These are all putting huge impact on our already over burdened joints. In truth, the cardio sections are only 2 minutes at a time for three times so its not not-doable, just difficult and I am sure it will get easier as time goes by. The workout itself, I really enjoyed because of the variety. She does 3 circuits of 6 minutes each and a 2 minute warm up and cool down. The moves are not complicated at all, I've always had trouble with squats and lunges but the way she showed how to do them and described what not to do - was very helpful and I think I may have actually done them right this time. I definitely feel my abs this morning. As I said in one of my WW posts, they are screaming out from under the layers of fat! Of course, the major bonus is that it is only 20 minutes and even when I was thinking I couldn't do another jumping jack or crunch, the time was going by so fast and before I knew it we were moving on to something else and then done.

Today I did 20 minutes of walking on the treadmill. Tomorrow is an attempt to go back to the C25K program.

I'm off now to make some strawberry shortcakes for us and a pot of coffee and then pack my meals for tomorrow, then read for a bit before bed.

I hope you have all had a great weekend :)

Aug 20, 2009

weather updates and other news

Note: This is last night’s post. I was unable to post as our power went out for the evening.


Wow…it is storming here. Thunder, lightening, torrential downpour!  We do need it though, its been so hot and humid and sticky and muggy for almost a week. Hopefully the rain will wash all that away and leave cool breezes and fresh air behind.

Today was a good “On Program” day.  I did well by packing everything two nights ago and today I just had to take it with me. 

My lovely coworker brought in brownies, cookies and ribs she had left over from a dinner party last night. I know she is a great cook, we talk about cooking and food and exchange recipes all the time and even though I don’t normally eat ribs, I did try a small piece – two bones? – what do you actually call those?  It was delicious, it literally fell off the bone and melted in my mouth.

I didn’t try the brownies and cookies because I can have those any time but the ribs were a nice treat.  I guesstimated the points from similar items in the Weight Watcher points tracker.

Came home and had planned to have fish and vegetables for dinner but my oldest son ended up treating us to pizza which was nice. So I had two slices of veggie pizza.

Wow – the rain is going sideways right now outside my bedroom window! That is so freaky!!!

Tomorrow we are going out for lunch as a group because our manager is away for the day :) We normally go to a local brewery pub so the food is not point friendly but my habit is to eat half my meal and bring half home so it doesn’t work out too badly. 

Today I saw 219 on the scale!!! That is 0.6 lower than before and also lower than my bouncing around the last few weeks, I am hoping it will show that for my “official” weigh in tomorrow morning.  If not, I know I will see it again eventually, I just have to keep plugging away.

Oh bad news about my shiny brand new laptop!!! The power adapter doesn’t seem to be working and is overheating itself and the laptop so I had to call Dell last night and they are sending me a new laptop.  That’s great except it will take 3 weeks to get here!!!

My “old” laptop has been repaired by a dear friend and I should have that back in a few weeks as well but I was planning to give it to Iain for Grade 9 so he wouldn’t have to go to the library all the time to do his homework and so he wouldn’t have to use my new one and I could keep it “clean”.

I am rambling :) Well I’ll go for now as the weather is really bad and our power is actually flickering on and off.  Will post this later when our internet connection is back up.

Aug 19, 2009

Blah busters


Remember last week I wrote that by Wednesday, I am in a blah mood about this whole weight loss thing. I am tired of tracking, tired of cooking, tired of just constantly thinking about it.  As a consequence, Wednesdays and Thursdays tend to be totally off plan and then I have to redouble my efforts on Fridays to get back in the groove.

Well this week I was determined that wasn’t going to happen!

And it didn’t.

Last night, before the blahs hit – I planned for today and tomorrow. I made sure I had enough groceries in the house to make delicious and healthy meals for breakfast, snacks and lunch and then I packed them. Yes, that’s right! Two days in advance.

That means today I ate healthy and deliciously instead of not having a clue what I wanted and just eating whatever was handy or easy. A nice side of eating healthy all day is that tonight I do not feel tired and out of energy like I normally do after a carb-filled day.  I’m very pleased with myself. 

Now I just have to remember to do this EVERY week.

Thank you to all of you who sent me an email to let me know my blog comment feature was acting up and to those of you who so kindly tested it for me. It seems to be working now.

It is still really humid here and I’ve been unable to exercise outside nor inside as we don’t have A/C.  That is one thing I miss about belonging the YMCA.

Aug 18, 2009

Guess what???


I look fat.

No, I’m not going crazy.

I look fat.

It’s a good thing.

Still not going crazy.

I don’t look pregnant anymore. I just look fat.

I am very happy about that.

Quick peek in to say hi.

Hello everyone,

I've been absent a few days. I developed pink-eye on Friday and by Saturday (even with eye drops) my eye was swollen shut and oozing that awful green/yellow gunk.

I literally could not see through my eyes all day Sunday. Thankfully Monday morning my right eye was completely fine and my left eye only slightly swollen but no longer oozing.

Today, is pretty much normal.

Not alot to write about from my corner of the world. We've had high temps and high humidity since last Thursday and since we don't have a/c at home, this has meant no exercising at all so I was focusing really hard on just managing my eating and I think I did ok.

I've been bouncing up and down between 219.4 and 220.6 for the past four weeks and I've had enough!! I just want to be in the 2-teens and go down from there not keep seeing the 220s every few days again. Not sure what I need to do, but definitely need to shake something up. The heat and humidity is supposed to break over the next few days so maybe I can get in some exercise.

More later :)

Aug 13, 2009

Blogger Issues

Everytime I try and post a new message the template gets screwed up!

I am not sure if it's fixed now - apparently the comments weren't working last time.....

I will check again tomorrow.

Perfect day

tick mark  I had a perfect OP day today – in the eating department. The exercise department I seem to have left behind and I need to find it again.

I am at 21.5/27 points for the day so far and I have had breakfast, lunch, dinner and 2 snacks. One more snack before bed with my last diabetes med and I will have a perfect tracker.

Food NSVs today – my coworker and I went to Starbucks and I had a skim milk latter for 3.5 points. I love lattes and skim milk so it wasn’t really a hardship or sacrifice, but I did pass up all their tempting but oh so pointy treats!

Another coworker had brought some old cheddar cheese and homemade biscuits to share. I passed. Now I love both of these but I had just had lunch and didn’t need to eat again.  I told myself if there was any left when I had my afternoon snack I would have some and count it.  (Un)Fortunately, it was all gone come 3 p.m. so I stuck to my jello pudding.

Tomorrow will be another challenge as I will be out all day and eating lunch at a US restaurant which will involve US portion sizes! I’ll let you know how I did.

Just playin'....

Playing with my blog layout a forgive the mess!!

Aug 12, 2009

Layouts & Lightbulbs

I seem to have lost my blog template! I am not familiar enough yet with blogger to know how this happened and I can’t seem to find the template I had to reload it. Well that sucks…or maybe it is a message that I should change my template? I really liked the other one, it felt “Canadian” to me.

I’ll work on it over the weekend. I’d really like a 4 column format if I can find one and figure out how to load it.

lightbulb I came to a realization tonight. I seem to have issues mid-week every week for the last 3-4 weeks. By Wednesday I seem to be burnt out with so many things, work, home, exercise, cooking – that I just give up for a day or two until I can knock some sense back into myself by Friday and start again. I know being off the rails two days a week is not catastrophic and that it is way better than being off 7 days a week…but now I see a pattern I think I can put some strategies into place to try and avoid it next week. I think my weekends are so full and busy that by the time I get to mid week I just can’t think anymore.

  1. Plan on Monday for Tues/Wed/Thurs so I don’t have to think about it when the time comes.
  2. Put together an exercise schedule so I don’t have to think about it on those days.
  3. Go to bed earlier those nights so I can get some extra sleep and not be so tired.

So I’m going to try this for next week and see if I can overcome the mid-week blahs!!

Aug 11, 2009

Tuesday..where do the days go?

I've just not been into writing the last few days. It seemed like a huge effort to put words on the screen.

I don't think I've completely snapped out of it, but I wanted to make some sort of attempt tonight.

I just got back from seeing Julie & Julia and I loved it. I read the book last year and instantly fell in love with Julia Child and Julie Powell. The movie was so true to the book, which is pretty rare and I think I loved it just as much as the book. Meryl Streep, as always, was brilliant and this was my first experience with Amy Adams and I really warmed to her.

The movie made me think of my own situation.

I've been obsessing about this weight loss journey alot the last few weeks and I know my pattern with obsessions - eventually I burn out. I have completed 7 months of this journey so far and have lost just over 30lbs, I don't want to burn out, quitting is not an option.

I need to do something about my exercise program (or lack thereof) to make it more serious, more part of my life, rather than something I do when I feel like it. I saw a schedule on another blog (Fat (Free) Me) and I like the idea of having a set schedule to follow and I am good with schedules. I like order and organization. I'd like to put one like this on my blog but haven't figured out how to do it yet. I may just ask this blogger and use her method :)

Another reason for the obsessing is that I am really not into my job right now. I love the company, I love my coworkers - my job itself - is unchallenging and uninteresting to me. I just go through the motions. I do my best, I don't do shoddy work, but my heart isn't in it and it's not hard to do my best at such easy tasks. I miss being a trainer, I miss organizing and writing and creating and teaching and learning something new everyday. I hope one day I will be able to do all that again. So because I can't put any creative energy into my work, it all falls to my home and my personal life. I cook alot :) I create new meal plans and new meals for everyone to try. I experiment with new ingredients, sometimes it doesn't work but that's ok because I have so much fun and learn so much. My boys are more involved in cooking with me and we talk about fresh food and global warming and sustainability and chemicals and food processing and junk food. It's been good for all of us and I don't want to lose that.

I am rambling, yet again :)

Tomorrow is a new day.

Aug 7, 2009

Friday and Feeling Fine

I woke up this morning for the first time this week in NO pain!

Thanks for all the suggestions over the last week :)

Aug 6, 2009

Almost the weekend!

Just a short post as I want to get an early night tonight.

Today was pretty quiet and uneventful. I stayed OP all day and within my points for the day, which is good as I am 6 in the hole and my week ends today, as my weigh in is tomorrow morning.  It will probably also be uneventful :) As long as I see a downward trend over a rolling 4 week average, I’m happy.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to walk tonight as the muscles in my thighs and lower back are just too sore. I am starting to wonder if I did pull or strain the muscles when I ran outside rather than this just being sore from underuse? Anyway, doesn’t matter, I’m sure in a few days I will be back to normal.

I got a “new” (read as in new to me) chair at work today which better supports my back and is a better height for me and by the end of the day I could tell my posture was better and I was more comfortable, so I am hoping that will also help.

Breakfast, lunch and two snacks are made and in my cooler to take to work tomorrow so it should be another easy OP day.

Thank you for your comments and emails today, it really brightened my day and was nice to know that “someone” cared, you know?

My fasting blood sugar this morning was 6.8 which is higher than it has been, but today was the first 24 hours without the Glicozide (the med I stopped as of Tuesday night).  If I can keep my fasting blood sugar under 7.0 then I’ll be doing ok. If it starts to creep up then I have to call my doctor back and decide if I want to start taking it again or look at other options.  The rest of the day my blood sugar was under 7.0 which is “normal” for me and indicates good control. I know if I don’t start exercising in the next day or two though, it will creep back up. 

Have a good night everyone!

Thursday Check In

Just a quick note to say today is going alot better. Bringing food and planning my meals has definitely saved me this morning.

I woke up in a lot of pain but just eating properly and knowing I'm taking care of me is helping me feel better.

More later, have a great day everyone.


Aug 5, 2009

When you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

Today was a terrible day; emotionally, physically, mentally – nothing seemed to come together.

It’s strange because yesterday was such a wonderful day. For the past few days I’ve been eating perfectly, with virtually no effort on my part. I love the concept of “clean eating” (if not the term) and was finding it so easy and effortless to eat healthy, delicious meals and to plan. 

The highlight of my day yesterday was seeing my endocrinologist and getting the results of my blood work. My glucose and cholesterol levels had both greatly improved in the 8 weeks since I’d seen her last. We cut out one diabetes med altogether and lowered the dosage on the second one as well as lowering (down from last week) my thyroid med as well. I had lost 11 lbs since I’d seen her last and 4 inches off my waist. That is quite an accomplishment for 8 weeks. I was thrilled, I was feeling good about myself and my efforts. (I’ll edit this tomorrow to add the actual blood work numbers, it’s too late and I’m too tired to do it tonight).

All last night I could not sleep, I was tossing and turning. I’m not sure what i was thinking of exactly, but it was keeping me awake.

When the alarm went off at 5:30 this morning I had not slept and I was very tired. I also had a hungover feeling (even though I don’t drink) and was generally feeling “out of sorts”.  By the time I dragged myself out of bed I had to rush to get ready for work. For some reason, I had completely forgotten the night before to get my meals for the day ready and I had no idea what I was going to eat. I left home without eating and without taking any food for the day with me.  I stopped at Tim’s on my way to work and got a large coffee and a multigrain bagel with light cream cheese – that’s probably about 13-14 points right there.

As the morning went on, I felt more and more exhausted, sleep deprived and short tempered.  Having all carbs and caffeine for breakfast was not helping my blood sugar either.  Lunch was more carbs in the form of a frozen dinner from Loblaws and more caffeine in the form of a Diet Pepsi.  By the time I left the office at 3:30, I was feeling like a zombie and I had worried all day about the effect removing the Glicozide (diabetes med) would have on my fasting blood sugar level. All of a sudden it didn’t seem like such a good idea to stop taking it.

I came home and the house was a mess. I lost it and decided I would do my C25K workout before dinner.  I got through the warm up walk and then when I started to run, the pain in my thighs was incredible. Shooting, searing pains from my knees up to my hips, I had to stop and when I started again, even walking was painful. I was so upset, then I really did fall apart and just went to bed for a few hours. I think the sleep helped a little but when I woke up my blood sugar was very low and I felt, physically, even worse. By this time, Den and Liam had eaten and there were no leftovers so I ended up with a cup of coffee and a toasted English muffin because that’s all I had the energy to throw together.

Although I was still tired and dragging, I decided to stay up and watch “The Next Food Network Star”. Throughout the show, I could barely keep my eyes open. When it was over, I started to head to bed and then thought about how my day would be tomorrow if I woke up in the morning with no plan and food ready to go. So I took the 20 minutes and put together my breakfast, lunch and two snacks in my lunch bag for the day.  You know what? Just doing that, I feel more in control and more sure that tomorrow will be a good day. I am still worried that my blood sugar will be high in the morning without the Glucozide, especially since I didn’t eat mindfully today, but if that’s the case, I’ll deal with it tomorrow. 

I was feeling like a failure for not being able to complete the C25K tonight and I am still very disappointed but I am not giving up. Tomorrow I will just walk either on the treadmill or outside for about an hour and make sure I stretch and let the muscles in my legs heal and in a day or two, I’ll get right back into it. I might wait a bit before I try outside again, but I am not giving up.

Tonight I chose to plan for success and just by doing that, I will be a success tomorrow.

Aug 4, 2009

Tuesday Catch Up

I have to admit, I am feeling the effects of yesterday's outside run, today.

I woke up this morning and every muscle in my body aches, but mostly the front of my thighs and lower back. My job is mostly sitting, so every time I get up, it is a new wave of pain. I tried to get up every 10 minutes or so to stretch and just walk about a bit to work out the muscles.

This past long weekend was quiet. Den had gone to his family's farm with his mum for the weekend so it was just me and the boys and they slept most of the day and stayed up most of the night while I did the opposite. It was almost like being single again. I did alot of housework, meal planning and cooking for the coming week so I am well prepared.

I discovered Clean Eating Magazine from Andrea, another blogger and love it. I signed up for a subscription the same day I read it. I love how each issue has a 14 day menu with recipes to get you started on the right foot and to keep food interesting and varied. The recipes are very uncomplicated and use a variety of ingredients. The menus are varied and easy to follow. As I've been losing weight, I've been relying on alot of low fat, no sugar processed foods to fill in for foods I've taken away. I would like to get away from them and focus more on whole, natural foods and to set a better example for my boys. I don't want them thinking that eating healthy is out of boxes and using chemicals to replace sugar and fat. I like the attitude of the Clean Eating magazine as well, it focuses on making changes gradually, one meal at a time, which is what my philosophy to weight watchers is as well. I made up my own 1 week menu based on their first week menu. Some stuff I changed, for example, I am not going to eat cottage cheese so I replaced that with yogurt in the menu plan. I have blueberries in the fridge so I replaced those for the raspberries. It seems easy to customize and play around with to suit my tastes and what I already have in the fridge. Going forward I'll shop around the menu to some extent, but I know I will still sub items to suit myself. I've been doing this since Saturday and it's going quite well so far. I'll keep you posted.

I've been faithful to the Ten Minutes A Day Challenge except for one day where I was sick as a dog. Puking and exercise do not go well together! I actually look forward to figuring out how/where I can squeeze in ten minutes and a couple of times, I managed it twice a day. Thanks again to Chubby Chick for this idea.

Tonight I'm going to go for a quiet walk around my neighbourhood in honour of Jen's mom and reflect on my own life and blessings and pray for her family.

This afternoon I see my endocrinologist and I'm so excited about seeing my blood work results. My glucose levels have been so amazing for the last two months I can't wait to see what my A1C reading will be. I do take medication to lower my blood glucose but I can see that exercise and diet and losing weight have a definite positive impact on the daily numbers. I've also lost 11lbs since I saw her last which I know she will be thrilled about. Her scale weighs in kilograms and it would be really cool to be under 100kg (220lb) on her scale. This morning, on my scale I weighed 220lbs so on hers it will probably be a bit over because it's at the end of the day and I will be fully dressed. I'll let you know though.

Oh exciting news! My new laptop was delivered today. Unfortunately everyone was in bed when it arrived and Purolator took it back to their depot so I have to pick it up there. I've been using my work laptop at home now for a few weeks which is ok, but I can't download or install stuff on it and I'm always worried about something happening to it at home, i.e. spilling coffee all over it, dropping it etc. so I am so thrilled to have my own new one now and its running Vista which I've never used yet. So tonight I will probably spend installing Office and setting it up. It also means I will be able to use LiveWriter for my blog posts! Yoohoo.

My digital camera has been on the blink so I've not been taking pics of my food, but I think I've got it sorted now so will start doing that again tomorrow and I can show you some of the food / menus from Clean Eating magazine.

Anyway, more later!

Aug 3, 2009


I keep sitting down to write, but then I can't put Jen's tragedy out of my mind. Everything else I start to write about seems inconsequential and unimportant in the grand scheme of things.

I am reminded of all the blessings in my life, my healthy, happy boys; my husband who we almost lost to a brain aneurysm earlier this year; my wonderful sister and her husband; my brothers, my loving parents and all my amazing friends who support me and cheer me on no matter what.

Think about your blessings, because you never know when there won't be time for goodbyes.


Couch 2 5k, week 1 completed.

I ran outside today. Definitely harder on my knees, but not impossible.

Off to have a shower, will write more later.