May 26, 2011

Day 139 - 146, New Year

Went and weighed in last night,  I didn't think I'd be able to make my regular weigh in, but I did. While I was waiting to weigh in - and I waited a while longer because I wanted a different receptionist from last week - I opened my WW card - not my little one - the big one they keep. Our leader always pulls them and gives them to us while we're waiting in line. So...I opened it and started running down the list of weigh ins.


I am bad at math, seriously I suck at it. But even I could see there were some major problems between the record and my own card (both filled out by the receptionist at weigh in).  In some places the weights recorded for the same date didn't even match each other. One week my card said I had lost 0.4, yet the record showed a loss of 2.4.

And...all the mistakes were in the same handwriting - the receptionist I saw last week. I pointed it out to my favourite receptionist and my leader last night and they were both surprised and embarassed.  They said I should ask to have the display moved if I can't see it, that I should always see it unless I chose not to.  They said I can check the record any time I like. So..I weighed in and we took yesterday's weight and subtracted it from my starting weight and just ignored the mess in the middle.  I have no idea whether I lost or gained from last week because it was so f-ed up....we're going with I lost 0.8 if I really weighed 210 last week, which we don't know for sure because the record showed 210.6.....yeah go figure.  Anyway my total loss is 26.2 lbs and I'm going to check that scale and the math every week I go from now on!

Just a quick note to those of you that are Facebook friends - I deactivated my account for a bit so please don't think I defriended you!

May 18, 2011

Day 138, New Year

I need y'all talk me down off a ledge, or maybe the observation deck of the CN Tower. Especially you Anne (CarbTripper)!!!.

I did a week of the Dukan Diet - very low carb - in fact, low fat with low carb. I ate all my points every day but didn't use any of my extra points, I didn't exercise much, and I did drink a ton of water every day.

I went to weigh in tonight. The receptionist/weigh in woman says "You gained 3lbs this week, do you know what happenened?"  Seriously, I think it took me 10 seconds to find my voice.

I told her it was impossible, she did that sneer, "Well dear, that's what the scale says". Seriously, I was ready to rip the fucking scale off the shelf. I didn't actually look at the display myself. The way it's positioned  makes it hard to see at my height, I need to look over a stack of magazines to see it and I can't while I'm standing on it.

I left and called my friend Shelley and after she listened to me recover from my not-so-mini breakdown, I indulged in retail therapy. I needed a hair straightener for my new cut and I found some really cool belts at Talize.  Then I picked up dinner - and while sitting in the drive-through line in the pouring fucking rain (did I mention it is STILL raining????), I looked at my weigh in card.

Can you see this? What the receptionist wrote down?  Last week I weighed 207.8.  She writes this week's weight as 210.  Then says I gained 3, and my total loss is 28.2.  No way of working that math makes now I'm wondering if 210 is even right because it makes no sense at all, my own scale says I lost 4 lbs and my doctors scale last night showed a loss of 3 lbs.  I know it will all work itself out next week - when I will 1. not go to that receptionist and 2. look at the scale myself. 

May 17, 2011

Day 137, New Year

You know what losing almost 30 lbs gets me?

Let me share...

3" off my waist
A1C = 0.058
Cholesterol in the normal range

Probably a bunch of other stuff...but that's good for now :)

May 16, 2011

Day 136, New Year

"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit."— Albert Schweitzer


I have nothing new or inspirational to say today, but I wanted to take a minute and give a shout out to some awesome people who encourage me when I’m down, push me when I’m lazy and love me all the time.
Melissa      you inspire by your example to always push yourself and demand the best you can be.
Shelley        your sense of humour and your unconditional friendship mean the world to me and make my days lighter.
Tiffany     your constant support and common sense keep me going every day and remind me that quitting is not an option.
Karen       your unwavering belief in my confidence and my abilities makes me believe in myself.
Andrew        you make me face the things I don’t want to face, and I am always stronger for it.
And of course,  all my friends in the Blogosphere  that I’ve met in real life or just on line who make me laugh, smile, cry and most of all...THINK and DO.
At the end of the day, individually, we have to put in the work to get to our goals. This is one goal that really isn’t a team effort – only one person has the control - but having people who understand and are supportive makes the work easier.
Thank you!

May 15, 2011

Day 135, New Year

Today is day 5 of the Dukan Diet.  You know what...the texture of chicken is really bothering me this week, maybe it's because it's not paired with crunchy vegetables or smooth potatoes or rice? I don't know,  I just had some roasted chicken breast and literally had to gag it down.  The same thing happened on Friday.  Maybe I need a break from chicken?  Although I am holding strong with the Attack Phase,  I will be so glad to see these 7 days over.

I set up my Quantum scale last night and used it this morning for the first time. I think it will be great for when I get to maintenance because then all I will care about it staying within two pounds of my goal weight. But for losing weight, I think I like seeing the number - I will use it for the week and let you know my final thoughts and then do the giveaway - so stay tuned!  The only downside that comes to mind immediately is that only one person can use it at a time because it stores the starting weight and then calculates all the other weights based on that.

Today was another uneventful day - it poured rain.  Memo to Mother Nature: WTF????  So no run. I am going to have suck it up tomorrow if it rains again - I can't keep letting Mother Nature win this game.

No plans for this coming week. Work, home...repeat x 5. I've had a busy social life the last few weeks and I think I will welcome coming home every night and just chilling.

I lost my wedding ring today. It flew off my hand when I brushed my bangs away from my face and it took me a good 5 minutes outside to find where it had rolled to (under a Tim Horton's recycling / garbage bin).  I was in an absolute panic and was overjoyed when I found it. Probably I should stop wearing it - it's clearly too big and I've been separated a year so it doesn't make sense to have it resized and keep wearing it...does it?   I'm still wearing it, I just can't seem to go through the motion of pulling it off my finger and putting it away. I even have another ring to wear in it's place that I bought last summer - it's still sitting in it's little velvet box in my dresser.  Don't get me wrong - I have no illusions, delusions, fantasies or hopes that Den and I will reconcile. I am not sure what the ring is symbolising to me at this point and why I don't want to take it off.

May 14, 2011

Day 131- 134, New Year

Day 4 of the Dukan diet. This low-carb diet from Dr. Pierre Dukan from France is the newest "diet craze" in the low carb world. I read his book and found that it is even more stringent and restrictive than Atkins, but I decided to do the Attack Phase for 7 days to break my carb-cravings.  This is the fourth day and I'm still going strong.  I am not craving sugar or sweets at all. What I do "miss" is the texture of crunchy and crispy, so today I had some pickles on my bunless hamburger to get a crunchy mouth feel.

I don't think I could do even Phase 2 of the Dukan Diet for very long, it's still very restrictive, but I know after these 7 days I'll go back to my normal way of eating and I will feel better and I'll be able to stick with it again until I push myself back into carb overload. Hopefully these episodes will get fewer and farther between. I think since I started WW back in December 2010, it's happened 4 times and the first three times I was able to get myself back on track within a few days without drastic measures - this time it was dragging into 3 weeks of carb frenzy and I knew I had to stop it...hence trying the Dukan Diet.

It is rainy and overcast in Hamilton today. I was hoping to get back into running - but really, the rain does not inspire me!! And I pulled a muscle in my shoulder yesterday that is very very painful and even the jostling from walking is sending pain down my arm.  Tomorrow it should be a lot better and maybe I can convince myself to brave the rain. 

My Quantum Scale finally arrived! I haven't set it up yet, but will do so and let you know what I think of it very soon. Thank you Charlie at Quantum Scale for getting it all sorted out eventually.

A few weeks ago I ordered a GymBoss to help me with interval running. I also need to set that up and put it into use. 

All in all, life is good right now. Boys are doing well, work is steady, friends are awesome and I feel blessed. There's just enough drama in my life to stop me from being bored but not so much that I feel overwhelmed by it all.

May 10, 2011

Day 130, New Year

All day Sunday and yesterday I had a headache that would not quit. Last night I was up all night with fever then chills then fever get the idea.  I took some Tylenol and slept for 4 hours straight and when I woke up I felt semi-human. No fever, no chills and no headache.  I had to go get bloodwork done today for my endocrinologist appointment next week so I took some more Tyelonol and off I went. Bloodwork done.

Then because I'm home today and I have a lot of running around to do tomorrow night I decided I would go weigh in. I was absolutely dreading it.

Can I get a drumroll?

3.3 lbs down. Not only did I hit the 25 lbs mark, I blew past it. And I got my cute little charm for my keyring.

This is the lowest weight I've been since I started back in January of 2009.  My previous lowest was last May when I briefly hit 209.4 and stayed there for all of a week. Next goal is 36lbs lost and I need 8.4 lbs to get there.

I forgot to mention yesterday that I won a cookbook from Patty over at 135 by 12.   Thanks Patty! I'm looking forward to it. Clean Eating is my favourite magazine and I'm hoping this cookbook will give me some more new ideas.  I like their philosophy of making changes one meal at a time.

That's all I got for now folks...hope all of you have as beautiful weather as we do here in the Toronto/Hamilton area.

May 9, 2011

Day 125 - 129, New Year

I've been fighting a headache all day. I think it's a combination of lack of sleep and eating too many carbs and not eating regularly over the last three days.

My week last week was crazy busy at work and then I went out Thursday night to see Ghost Stories and to a wonderful Italian bistro in downtown Toronto (Terroni) with a friend. We had a great night and laughed so much. He drove me back to my car in Aldershot so I didn't have to wait for the train so that made it a somewhat earlier night, but getting home at 11 p.m. when the alarm goes off at 430 a.m. is still late!! Although the food was delicious that night, it was a lot of processed meat and white pasta and not much protein and fresh vegetables.

Saturday I was up bright and early to go to Buffalo with two other friends and since neither of them drive, that was also a long day - which saw me driving her back to Toronto and then back home arriving home around midnight. A late phone call that I didn't want to deal with, made my night even I ended up sleeping late Sunday morning which totally threw me off my game and left me with a splitting headache. Saturday's meals consisted of eating out all day. And Sunday I just grazed on whatever took my fancy. Today was not much better, but I did make a pot of homemade stew for supper and finally had some meat and vegetables!

I'm rambling, I know.

I downloaded The Dukan Diet for my iPhone. It's basically a low-carb diet and I know that low-carb (as in processed carbs) is the best for my body and my weight loss and when I lose sight of that and start letting processed carbs creep back in - I  not only feel like crap, but my skin looks dry and I get headaches.  I'm going to do the Attack Phase for 7 days to detox from the crappy carbs and then go back to "my" normal eating plan which is very limited processed carbs and lots of non-starchy vegetables and 2 pieces of fruit a day. I don't think I can sustain no pasta, rice, bread, sugar forever, but I can certainly do it for 7 days to get myself back on track.

Weigh in on Wednesday night and I have no idea what to expect. I have found myself obsessing over reaching the 25lb mark which is so dumb because from my all time high weight I am now at almost 40lbs but since joining WW in December, I've been fighting this number for the last month and want to win!  I have to keep reminding myself it's not about a number - its about how I feel, look and how healthy I am.

May 4, 2011

Day 122 - 124, New Year

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit."
~ Aristotle

Keep going, keep making good choices, keep exercising. It will work.  This is my mantra this week.

1.4 lbs down for a total of 24.3 lbs. This week was better than the last; I tracked, I ate well, I did 30 min or more of some kind of activity 5/7 days.  Eventually, the scale has to catch up.

Speaking of - I haven't heard anything else about my Quantum Scale. And if I do get mine, I am a little concerned about doing a giveaway and am worried the lucky winner won't actually be lucking in receiving it.  I'll keep you posted.

May 1, 2011

Day 121, New Year

A completely unproductive weekend. I had plans to do so much "stuff" and ended up doing the absolute bare minimum.  But you know what? It was nice to just do nothing, to have no real plans, to just go with the flow and chill for a day or two.

Of course, reality will set in tomorrow night when I have to do laundry and clean the bathroom...but for tonight - that stuff can wait.

I had fully planned to get back into C25K tonight but it started raining around 4 p.m. and was even freezing rain for a bit...and although I did three days last week in the rain and wind - I am just not up to it tonight.

I had a nice visit with my friend Shelley at Starbucks and we laughed - well she laughed at me and a situation that I've put myself into - a lot. I find I am laughing more and more these days and that's a good thing right?

Eating wise, this weekend has been right on track and I'm all set for the week ahead. Hopefully Wednesday will see me kicking those 1.5 pounds to the curb...and with any luck, just a little more. We'll see. One day at a time, right?