Today I feel a bit lost.
I am feeling like I am not sure what to do now. Which is silly, because I have been doing it - eating properly, exercising 5-6 times a week - but I feel like I am in limbo somewhere.
I know that eating less and moving more (Hi Dawne and Jack) works for some people, but I need structure, I need rules. I'm data driven and I like to "know" what I'm eating and how much I'm exercising. It makes me feel more in control of myself and my habits. I know that some people say it's just trading one obsession for another, but I don't think it is. I didn't get to 250lbs and Type II diabetes because I knew what I was doing - I got there because I didn't know what I was doing, I didn't know how much I was eating, how little I was exercising. If you had asked me (back then) I would have told you I mostly eat well and I'm active. Well, compared to now, I was a sloth and I ate like every day was my last meal.
For this week, I haven't been counting calories or points. I've just been eating like I always do and exercising but I feel...scared? I don't know if that's the right word. I feel like I'm on a tightwire with no safety net or driving without my seat belt.
So, still working on that one. In the meantime, working on losing these $&**!@ 6 lbs that I gained back. 2 down, 4 to go.