Jun 25, 2011

Day 172 - 176, New Year

September 2008
250+ lbs
(size 24 dress)
June 2011
209 lbs
(size 14/16 dress)
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Jun 20, 2011

Day 171, New Year

I just decided. I'm going to write another post. Ya know why?

Cause life really does NOT suck right now. The damn scale sucks. I am feeling good most of the time, eating well, exercising when I can fit it in and having fun with friends and family. Work is tolerable, it's SUMMER in the best place in the world to live (no...not Hamilton - I still consider Toronto home) and I am HAPPY. Honestly, I am happier than I have been in such a long time. There are days I forget that. Tonight I'm choosing to remember it.

My summer has gotten off to a rocking start with a 5K walk, drinks and dinner on a lovely downtown patio with a really cute and amusing guy, gorgeous 3" inch heels that I can walk in and not topple over because my stomach is throwing off my balance, cute summer dresses that show off my not - so - fat - anymore legs, a girls' night with some amazing ladies in a backyard patio, my youngest son's middle school grad is in two days and I have to tell you, that boy is so handsome in a suit, friends that call or email me every single day to tell me they love me and believe in me.

And despite the scale not loving me lately - I went shopping with a friend in Buffalo and followed her around Banana Republic and tried on an XL top and it fit comfortably. And when I see pictures of me taken in the last few weeks, I look "normal". Don't get me wrong, at 209 lbs and only 5' tall, I have about 70 lbs to lose and am still morbidly obese but I don't look HUGE standing next to normal size people....just big...does that make sense?

I am going to post pics from my son's grad later this week. I know when I put them next to the pics taken at my sister's wedding just before I started this weight loss journey, I will see the difference and realise that although I've got a long, long way to go, I've also come a long way.

After talking to my friend Tiffany, I also decided to get something special for my 50 lbs lost goal which will be in 9.2 more pounds. I will get there. I would prefer sooner rather than later...but when I do get there - I'm thinking I want something special to wear every day that will be an anchor for me to remind me. I was looking at Swarovski crystal jewellery and although a necklace was my first choice, I really want to save that for when I reach goal. So maybe stud earrings? I can wear them all the time and they are reasonably priced and beautiful and I will see them every time I brush my teeth or put on make up or do my hair and they are easy to touch when I need to "anchor" myself.

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Day 165 - 171, New Year

Hey there everyone...

Yeah I'm still floating around. Nothing new to report. Weight loss is going very, very, very S...L...O...W for me right now.

In other news - I received the Clean Eating cookbook I won awhile back from Patty over at 135 x 12 and I am psyched to start using it, it has 4 weeks of clean eating menus. What I love, love, love about Clean Eating magazine is their philosphy - changing your life, one meal at a time. It's really that simple.

As I go along, I'll share some recipes.

Thank you all for hanging in with me and a huge shout out to my two main supporters who never, ever let me give up - Shelley and Tiffany. Love you guys :)

Jun 13, 2011

Day 154 - 164, New Year

Can anyone see the yoyo in the sidebar to the left?
Yeah, me too.

Got nothing to say today, just trying to make this work.

Did the WW 5K on Sunday with my friends Shelley, Heather and Michele, it was a beautiful morning for a walk.

More...later.

Off to catch up with y'all.

Jun 2, 2011

Day 153, New Year

A is for Apple, what’s your favorite variety?Royal Gala.
B: is for Bread, regardless of nutrition, calories, or whole grains what is your favorite type to have a nice big piece of?
Italian bread.
C: is for Cereal what is your favorite kind currently (just one!)Don't like cereal.
D: is for Doughnuts, you might not currently be eating them but what kind do you fancy?Krispy Kreme, creme filled.
E: is for Eggs, how would you like yours prepared?Not fond of eggs, but if I have to eat one - soft boiled.
F: is for Fat Free, what is your favorite fat free product?Fat Free Cool Whip
G: is for Groceries, where do you purchase yours at?Fortinos, Loblaws, No Frills - whichever store has the best sales that week.
H: is for Hot Beverages, what is your favorite hot drink?Hot chocolate.
I: is for Ice Cream, pick a favorite flavor and add a fun topping.
Chocolate with peanut butter melted on top.
J: is for Jams or Jellies, do you eat them, and if so what kind and flavor?Raspberry jam on toast.
K: is for Kashi, name your favorite Kashi product?
None ;(
L: is for Lunch, what was yours today?Wendy's Pico Snack Wrap and Baked Potato?
M: is for microwave, what is your favorite microwave meal/snack?Vitatop with sugar free hot fudge sauce
N: is for nutrients, do you like carbs, fats, or proteins best?Carbs...all the way.
O: is for oil, what kind do you like to use?Olive oil.
P: is for protein, how do you get yours?Chicken mostly.
Q: is for Quaker, how do you like your oats?In cookies.
R: is for roasting, what is your favorite thing to roast?Chicken rubbed with olive oil.
S: is for sandwich, what’s your favorite kind?Grilled vegetables.
T: is for travel, how do you handle eating while traveling?Badly..
U: is for unique, what is one of your weirdest food combos?Can't think of any.....
V: is for vitamins, what kind do you take?
C, D and E
W: is for wasabi, yay or nay?Nay.
X: is for XRAY. if we xrayed your belly right now, what food would we see?
Chicken quesadilla, hummus and pita chips.
Y: is for youth, what food reminds you of your childhood?Turkey Christmas dinners and apple pie.
Z: is for zucchini, how do you prepare it?Brushed with olive oil and grilled.

Jun 1, 2011

Day 147 - 152, New Year

Weigh in tonight was up 0.2 lbs. I have to admit, today I just don't care. I am tired and have been feeling unwell for about a week and to be honest, weight loss hasn't been foremost in my mind. I know it needs to be. The only way I ever succeed and do well is when I live, breathe, eat and sleep in weight loss mode. It sucks...but it's the truth. The second I let my guard down, for whatever reason, I start to regain.  Even though I know this in my head and I have long ago accepted I will always, for the rest of my life, have to watch what I eat - there are times that other things take over the brain space and the emotional energy required to maintain a healthy lifestyle.

So...I am feeling much better this afternoon than I have the last 4-5 days so hopefully I am on the road to recovery and can get back into 100% full tilt weight loss mode frame of mind and body. This won't work if I don't.

I am going to the Toronto Zoo on Sunday - one of my all time favourite places - so there will be lots of walking and it will be a good mental break from the rest of my life.  Funnily enough, I am not a big "animal" person...but I love the Zoo.

That's all I got tonight folks :)

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