Jun 20, 2011

Day 171, New Year

I just decided. I'm going to write another post. Ya know why?

Cause life really does NOT suck right now. The damn scale sucks. I am feeling good most of the time, eating well, exercising when I can fit it in and having fun with friends and family. Work is tolerable, it's SUMMER in the best place in the world to live (no...not Hamilton - I still consider Toronto home) and I am HAPPY. Honestly, I am happier than I have been in such a long time. There are days I forget that. Tonight I'm choosing to remember it.

My summer has gotten off to a rocking start with a 5K walk, drinks and dinner on a lovely downtown patio with a really cute and amusing guy, gorgeous 3" inch heels that I can walk in and not topple over because my stomach is throwing off my balance, cute summer dresses that show off my not - so - fat - anymore legs, a girls' night with some amazing ladies in a backyard patio, my youngest son's middle school grad is in two days and I have to tell you, that boy is so handsome in a suit, friends that call or email me every single day to tell me they love me and believe in me.

And despite the scale not loving me lately - I went shopping with a friend in Buffalo and followed her around Banana Republic and tried on an XL top and it fit comfortably. And when I see pictures of me taken in the last few weeks, I look "normal". Don't get me wrong, at 209 lbs and only 5' tall, I have about 70 lbs to lose and am still morbidly obese but I don't look HUGE standing next to normal size people....just big...does that make sense?

I am going to post pics from my son's grad later this week. I know when I put them next to the pics taken at my sister's wedding just before I started this weight loss journey, I will see the difference and realise that although I've got a long, long way to go, I've also come a long way.

After talking to my friend Tiffany, I also decided to get something special for my 50 lbs lost goal which will be in 9.2 more pounds. I will get there. I would prefer sooner rather than later...but when I do get there - I'm thinking I want something special to wear every day that will be an anchor for me to remind me. I was looking at Swarovski crystal jewellery and although a necklace was my first choice, I really want to save that for when I reach goal. So maybe stud earrings? I can wear them all the time and they are reasonably priced and beautiful and I will see them every time I brush my teeth or put on make up or do my hair and they are easy to touch when I need to "anchor" myself.

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  1. Sounds like things are going well in your life! Definitely get the studs at 50 pounds lost...you deserve them!

  2. So happy for you Enz. Now, move your ass back to Toronto and I'LL be happy, lol. I say get some fabulous earrings and save the necklace for goal.