Life is still hectic and stressful for me right now. I am beginning to forget what "normal" looks like. Maybe this is my new normal? I feel like I'm living in a bad soap opera where every day brings new drama. I know that how I react to the drama is more important than the drama itself. And I am trying very hard not to react with food or poor choices. It's so easy at the end of a crazy day to just go home and order pizza or stop in the drive through or not eat at all and just go to bed early to hide from life, but I know I won't feel better if I do that, I don't even like that kind of food all that much any more, but it satisfies my need for "now and no work" and seems to make me feel less stressed because it's one less thing I need to think about at that moment in time. It's also setting a bad example for my boys who are still growing and need healthy, nutritious food not junk!
You know how sometimes your mind gets so full of stuff that you can't even organize your thoughts? I have felt like that for a few weeks and then today a whole new issue was added. I'm not trying to be mysterious, but I don't want to share my entire life here or turn this blog into a venue for whining and venting about everything.
Anyway - obviously I need more strategies to deal with this so I don't resort to pizza and drive thru. Perhaps cooking and freezing meals ahead of time or enlisting more help from Den and Iain...but I do need to do something.