How did this week go? I am still not 'in the game' but this week I was more conscious of the little things I had let slip over the last few months that add up to big things - drinking less water, not walking for my minimum 30 min every day, less sleep, not pre-tracking/pre-planning meals, not having fruit or a protein bar with me all the time......alone each one is not a big deal but for sure, all of those things together were contributing. I am a big believer in small changes adding up to big results and although I believe it, I think I stopped practising it.
So I made all these changes and saw success and over time, I have unmade those changes so it's time to make them again, just like I did last time - one by one.
I just feel....TIRED and I am not sure why. I don't mean physically tired (although there is that too) - I am not sure what I mean. Thanksgiving is coming up which coincides with my wedding anniversary and this year would have been 29 years. It's hard. And I turn 50 this year, maybe it's a mid-life crisis.
October is usually my favourite month (Thanksgiving/Wedding Anniversary/Birthday) but this year I am just dreading it and I have made so many plans!
October 5-6-7 I am going to Rochester, NY with a friend for a hiking/shopping/spa trip, October 12-16 I am off to Las Vegas for the first time as part of my birthday gift to myself and then the 30th is my birthday so the weekend before that I will probably do something special with my sons.
Hopefully I can snap out of this funk somewhere south of 200 lbs. Maybe I will hit the jackpot in Vegas or find a Sugar Daddy. Maybe pigs will fly :)
Then the first weekend of November I have a conference at Niagara Falls.
Breathe in. Breathe out. Repeat.